Monday, October 18, 2010

Cry Joy

I wrote this last week, but finally got around to posting. I hope you enjoy. :)

This morning started like most mornings---I hit the ground running. I got up, made coffee, checked email & facebook (priorities people!), made breakfast for the kids, picked out clothes, helped get the kids dressed, fixed their hair, made sure back packs were in order, took Gavin to school, came back home, packed the little boys lunch, got their shoes on, finally got myself dressed, took them to school, came back home, loaded the dish washer, loaded the washing machine, picked up the house from the morning, and FINALLY sat down to do my quiet time. To say that my morning routine is busy is an understatement---it is non-stop, especially when Billy is out of town. This morning, I felt God calling me to spend time with him, but I kept saying, “let me do one more thing, then I will sit down.” This went on for at least an hour before finally sitting down and my sweet precious God knew exactly what I needed to hear this morning.

October 13, 2010 “Jesus Calling” devotional by Sarah Young

TAKE TIME TO BE STILL in my presence. The more hassled you feel, the more you need this sacred space of communion with Me. Breathe slowly and deeply. Relax in My holy Presence while My Face shines upon you. This is how you receive My Peace, which I always proffer to you.

Imagine the pain I feel when My children tie themselves up in anxious knots, ignoring my gift of Peace. I died a criminal’s death to secure this blessing for you. Receive it gratefully; hide it in your heart. My Peace is an inner treasure, growing within you as you trust in Me. Therefore, circumstances cannot touch it. Be still, enjoying Peace in My Presence.

Numbers 6:24-26
“The Lord bless you and keep you;
the Lord make his face shin upon you and be gracious to you;
the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.”

Psalm 46:10
“Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.

As you can imagine, reading these words resonated deep in my soul. So much that tears rolled down my face as I read them…tears from a beautiful place. Tears of joy. God was meeting me right where I needed this morning and it was amazing. What is even more precious about our God--- is when I looked up Psalm 46:10 (even though I already knew the verse), He brought me a little further down the page. I will share the verse in a moment, but before I do, I want to tell you a sweet story about Gavin last night.

I was putting him to bed, doing our normal nightly routine…prayers and talking about our day. I love this time of day with him because he shares more with me right before bed than any other time of day. Anyway, we finished our time together and he reminded me that he needed some Vaseline for his dry lips. We have been putting that on his lips for over a week. I ran down stairs and grabbed it and brought it back up stairs. I opened it up and scooped a nice amount of Vaseline on my finger and proceeded to put it on his lips. I have been doing this for over a week and never once--- was I silly about the application, but for some reason last night, I decided to run my finger back and forth on his lips really fast. If you have ever done that to your lips, you know that it makes a silly sound. And if you live in a house full of boys, you know that they love silly sounds. Love. Silly. Sounds. Gavin started to laugh so loud and deep that it brought tears to my eyes. It was a soul-filled belly laugh; you know those laughs that are good for the soul. I was laughing and he was laughing. We honestly could not stop laughing. It was one of those precious moments as a parent that you never want to forget. I love to laugh and even more, I love to laugh with my children. In the midst of all this laughter, Gavin said something that stuck with me, he said, “I am laughing so hard, I am going to cry joy!” I don’t think I have ever heard my child use the word joy. The definition of joy is the expression of a wonderful emotion. He hit the nail on the head. He was experiencing a wonderful emotion that could only be expressed by the word joy. As I left his room, I came down stairs and wrote down on a post-it the words, “I am going to cry joy.” I knew it was something that I wanted to journal to share with Gavin later. It was just so sweet that he knew that you could cry and it could be from a happy place. He is growing up indeed.

Ok, so back to my morning, my tears this morning were tears of joy. They were brought on from a place of so much love for My Heavenly Father and the wisdom (as little as I can have at my age) of knowing how much He loves me. He is always meeting me where I am with unconditional love. I found a great definition of biblical joy on the internet at

Biblical joy is inseparable from our relationship with God and springs from our knowledge and understanding of the purpose of life and the hope of living with God for eternity when there will be joy evermore. If God is actually present in our lives, the joy He experiences can begin in us (Psalm 16:11). Joy is the sign that life has found its purpose, its reason for being! This, too, is a revelation of God, for no one can come to Him and find the purpose of life unless He, by His Spirit, calls him and reveals it (John 6:44; I Corinthians 2:10).

My joy was flowing deep within my soul this morning. It is a joy that only he can provide. It is not something we can have on our own. I think He gives us glimpses of it in laughter, just like I experienced with Gavin last night, but the sense of purpose behind my tears this morning was so much more. More than words can ever describe.

Ready for the icing? And the whole reason for writing this story this morning? As I read down further in Psalms after reading, “be still!” My eyes focused on three words “cries of joy”. Remember I wrote that on a post-it last night?! I went back and read the whole verse,

Psalm 47:1 – Clap your hands, all you nations; shout to God with cries of joy.”

I have no doubt that God knew that I was going to make the connection this morning about Him and the joy only He can provide. He laid it all out for me. He just wants us to be so connected to Him that we cry tears of joy. I write this today to share apart of me and my relationship with God. His joy resides deep in my soul and it can in yours too. I am not saying I have all of this perfected, far from it really. I am just on a journey and have quickly realized that our only hindrance is our self. When is the last time you have stopped and let God be God? 30 minutes ago, a day, a week, a year, 10 years, never? Wherever you are right now, just be still. Ask the God of the universe to meet you right where you are and ask Him to show you what joy really means. He just might surprise you.

Blessings sweet friends – Tanni :)

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Fall Baseball

We are in the middle of Gavin's second season of competitive baseball. He seems to be liking it. This year, it is coach-pitch so that has been a little bit of a challenge for Gavin, but he definitely has come so far from last year when he would stand in the outfield and look at the sky. This season, he is leading the cheers from the dugout when they are batting. How did he get so old? Only 6 months ago, he was missing his two front teeth. Time keeps passing us by...but we intentionally try to take it all in as it comes.

Gavin and Kaden---his life long friend. They have known each other since very early in their life---I think the playdates started at 4 months old. I have pictures to prove it. It is fun to see them enjoying a sport together.

Kaden was batting and hit his very first hit (ever) at the game this evening. This is a picture of him and the coach as he made it to home plate. We were all so proud of him. Way to go Kaden! :)