Saturday, January 31, 2009

25 Random Things About Me

I have had several people tag me in Facebook and I think it is pretty neat to read about everyone so, here I go...25 RANDOM things about me:

1 - I became a Christian in my mid-twenties.
2 - I love to blog and am surprised how much of an outlet it is for me.
3 - All three of my boys have the initials GG and I love them with all my heart.
4 - I went through IVF prior to both my pregnancies and still have 6 frozen embryos. The twins were actually frozen for 2 years before they were born. Crazy, right?
5 - I love to capture great moments on my camera.
6 - I worked my whole way through college and paid my whole way, technically I am still paying...lovely student loans.
7 - I studied my last 6 weeks of college overseas in London.
8 - My dad died of lung cancer when I was 25 and Billy and I were blessed with the gift of holding his hand as he took his last breath. I was changed forever in a very awesome way.
9 - I drove a car in college that I literally duck taped to keep the rain out.
10- I completed a 1/2 marathon and want to do it again, but this time run more. :)
11 - All of my boys - middle names - are named after someone in our family.
12 - I have been to 4/5 Hawaiian Islands and also Alaska, Mexico, Great Britain, France & The US Virgin Islands...I guess the point to this fact is I like to travel....far!
13 - I am obsessed about deleting anything off the DVR.
14 - I sleep with eye pillows at night and love them!
15 - I married my best friend and he still is after 10 years together....praise God, because raising 3 boys is not easy.
16 - I wear my jeans multiple times before washing them.
17 - I am a rule follower.
18 - I don't always manage my time the best way and know I should do better.
19. I hate to put laundry away. I don't mind washing and folding.
20. I still watch All My Children and have for too many years to count. :)
21. I love to have genuine relationships.
22. In high school, I was riding in a car during a storm and the car was washed away by water. I sat in the backseat with water covering my legs and waist...pretty scary!
23. While in France, I visited the Dom Perignon Winery, some very cool churches and of course the Eiffel Tower.
24. After the twins were born, they stayed 3 weeks in the NICU. Before we left the hospital, they were covered in a local news story on The Woodlands hospital.
25. I am into the whole organic movement....not fully eating it, but working on it.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

My Baby Is Growing Up

Gavin was 6 months old when he got his first two teeth. It was such a milestone and we were excited to meet it. My precious baby was growing up and getting teeth. I could not wait for the next mile stone and anxiously awaited for him to meet them one by one. I feel like the first several years of his life we have wanted him to grow and change so much, but that has all come to an end. I officially want to package him up and keep him right where he is.

I cannot believe that this time has come. Gavin's first two teeth are loose. He is growing up and there is nothing I can do about it. We were eating lunch a couple of days ago and I noticed some gaping in his teeth. His teeth have always been pretty proportioned on the spacing so I went in for another look....never thinking that his teeth would be loose, but they were. SOB!
It makes me sad to think that he is growing up so fast. If I could, I would slow it down. When people would tell me the time goes by fast, I understood, but this is the first time it is really sinking in. He, of course, would like to be 18 tomorrow and is super excited that his teeth are loose before he is turning 5. I will embrace it and encourage him to grow and change even though I don't like it. :) As I am typing this, I just want to remind myself to take in all the moments of being a mom and watching my kids grow up before my eyes. It is a gift and I want to treasure every moment.


Friday, January 23, 2009

Let Go & Let God

I know it has been awhile since I posted. Everything is fine, just busier than normal...what is normal, really? Life is always busy, but managed better when you make time for God.

I had the pleasure of attending a Ladies Night Out speaking event last night. It was organized by Proverbs 31 Ministries. There were several speakers & singers...Lysa TerKeurst, Renee Swope, Jason Catron, & Ayiesha Woods. The featured speaker was Kate Gosselin from TLC's Jon & Kate plus 8. I love that show and have watched it for a couple of years. I honestly use to watch it to make myself feel better when I would get a case of "poor me". This was mostly when the twins were very little and the majority of my day was spent feeding, changing diapers and wrangling my very active 2 year old. I found comfort in the fact that someone else was going through a harder time than I was. If she could do it, then surely I could, right? Well, life is much more manageable today than a couple of years ago, for me & also for the Gosselin Family. Believe me, we still have our challenges, but they are just different.

Kate recently wrote a book sharing her faith journey through a very difficult and blessed time in her life...adding 6 to her family of 4. She was very candid about her struggles and also how God continually provided for her family. I was blessed to hear her story. As she was about to finish up, she said something that held much significance for me. She said, "God is always in control & you can not put a time frame on God."

Now, I know these statements are true because I have been a Christian for many years and God is absolutely in control, but that does not mean that I (Christians) don't struggle with trying to take that control away from God at times. I am struggling in a area of my life where I have been trying to put a time frame on God. This struggle is specifically related to the six frozen embryos that Billy and I have from the IVF we have done in the past. Am I saying that I want more children, not exactly, but I am trying to find some direction in this area and I have been putting "MY" time frame on it. I came away from the event with an "AH HA!" moment. It was like a light bulb went off inside my head telling me to STOP trying to control the situation and let GOD take control of it. So here I am, I will wait for God to give me direction. Where will it lead us? I am not sure, but I know that it will be inspired by God and not me.

I will share more on this later, but in the interim, please pray for God to guide Billy & I in this situation...specifically for the peace to adopt the embryos out or the courage to have more children.

After writing all of that, I realize my attraction to the show had a much deeper meaning than just empathy. It was God.


Sunday, January 11, 2009

What in the World was He Thinking?

I was playing on the computer this morning and was interrupted by Billy yelling, "Honey, can you please come here?" I got up and found Billy and he proceeded to tell me that our oldest son decided to pee, YES PEE, off the second story banister. WHAT?

Honestly, I was upset, but it was almost more comical than upsetting, however, I could never let Gavin know that. Now, I know that I have never specifically told him not to pee off the banister, but what in the world was he thinking? I thought my biggest worries about anything coming off the banister would be cars/toys/balls and that was specifically explained as bad behavior. Billy and I both asked him why he did it and his best answer was "I could not make it to the bathroom and I really had to go." If you were wondering, the bathroom was another 5 feet so of course that explanation was not good enough....not that any explanation would work because there is no excuse for his behavior. He was sent to his room as we assessed the damage and tried to contain our laughter. As far as he knows, we were really mad (which we mostly were), but we could not quit laughing (inside of course). Thankfully, there were clean clothes (waiting to be put away) on top of the chair that received the bulk of the bad behavior.

Gavin waited in his room for his punishment/discipline and afterwards we prayed with him about making good/right choices and not bad/wrong choices. Hopefully this is a behavior that has been corrected after one occurrence. I am not sure if my furniture could take multiple offences. I have a feeling this will not be the last time that I am shocked by my children.

Oh, and if you were wondering how we found out, he told on himself, he is only 4 and they do that to themselves. I know that will change in due time. :)
Blessings, Tanni

Saturday, January 10, 2009

New Do's

Last week, we took the little boys to get a hair cut. I was not exactly sure what I was going to do, but was excited when the stylist took charge. I love the little boys hair cuts and know the grandparents are really going to love the short cut. They look like such BIG boys with a cute style. They now have to wait in line in the morning to get their hair gel. It is a site to see...Mommy with her water spray bottle, gel, and three little boys waiting their turn to get their hair fixed. :)

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Goofing Off

One afternoon over the Christmas break, the boys decided to play in my closet. Grayson thought he was cool in his sun glasses and Gavin wanted to play in the snow (pretend, of course!) with his scarf and headband/earmuffs. Just some good old pretend play for the boys. If you are wondering where Gage is, this was a day that he was really sick and was laying in bed watching TV. I guess he was missing out on the goofing off! :)

Loving on Grayson

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Happy New Year - 2009

Happy New Year! I can not believe it is already 2009. I am sure I will be saying that 10 years from now when it is 2019. EEEKK...I will have teenagers then! :) Time seems to pass us by faster and faster each year. This New Years was the 11th year for Billy and I to celebrate together. We enjoyed a nice evening at home as a couple. It was our first ever to spend completely alone....minus the kiddos sleeping upstairs. We really enjoyed it. We spent the evening reminiscing over the past 10 years and all that has happened in our lives. We came to the conclusion that we are blessed more than we could have ever imagined. Our life has been filled with ups and downs, just like anyone else, but for us we are eternally grateful for the constant in our life, God. We are able to endure what comes at us day to day because of the relationship we have with Him. We are excited about 2009 and living our life fully, spiritually, & humbly.
Blessings & Happy New Year!
Billy & Tanni


Friday, January 2, 2009

The Woman Behind the Camera

As I looked over our Christmas pictures, I noticed one consistent factor. Mommy was missing. Was she missing because she was not there? No, she was missing because she is always the one taking the pictures. Go figure! I want my little ones to know that mommy was participating in their Christmas this year...she was just behind the camera! Billy, with a little influence, was gracious enough to take a couple of pictures of me and the boys by the Christmas tree. See boys....I was there! :)

The Christmas that almost happened...

Well, our visit with Mia and Papa was short lived. We were suppose to spend the entire weekend after Christmas with them and also my sister Kelli and her family, however our weekend plans came to a screeching halt when Kelli's family got a stomach bug. My sister and family drove from Lewisville almost to Conroe and called to suggest that they stay in a hotel due to the stomach bug. Mia and Papa were gracious enough to go and get the girls from my sister hoping to save them from getting sick. However, we felt it was best to limit exposure to our family since the girls were already exposed to the virus. Long story short, Christmas was cancelled for our family. I was pretty upset in the moment, but soon realized that it was all in God's plan because our family came down with a cold/flu. A cold/flu would not have been a great mix with a stomach bug, so praise God for the way everything happened.
We were blessed to get to spend the day with Mia & Papa before they left. The boys really enjoyed their time with them. Here are some pictures from our day at The Woodlands Waterway.
Mia & Grayson

Papa & Gavin

Gage on the boat at the Waterway.


The boys & Papa

Gage really taking in the boat ride.

Is this a picture of me? Wow! It is Gage & Mommy! :)

Trying to get all three of them in a picture.

The boat we all rode on.

Our walk to restaurant to eat lunch.

Grayson holding Mia & Papa's hands.

Cool picture of some berries on a tree. I know it is a little off topic, but I took it on the same day, same trip. This new camera is really neat!